[	mood	|	Cold	]
[	music	|	Let It Be - Across The Universe	]

Kay, so.
I had a 'group' of friends. And we were BESTEST BUDDIES EVER, or so I thought.
There was 4 of us. I will call my friends J, M, and C
becos those are initials XD

But anyways. M and C are annoyed with J, becos she's just a bit too... high-strung and all that.
But I was a little annoyed with her too
So we decide that all of us would have a talk with J, and see if she could change a little, or we'd just NOT be able to be friends.
And M and C BOTH said 'We ALL need to be in on this, or it'll just mess around with OUR friendship too'
So we all decide this is for the best (Mind you, I was a LITTLE hesitant becos I thought it was just RUDE to drop her like this)
And J decided the talk COULDN'T wait, she wanted to talk NOW OR NEVER
And C and M were like 'Well, I guess it's never'
And I, of course, had to be the barer of bad news.

So about a year goes by, and C and M seem to be fine with it. J would talk a bit behind my back, about what a les-bean I was, and how stupid my hair looked.
And I still, somehow felt BAD for just dropping her.
So I bring it up to C and M. And they tell me NOT to start talking to her again, becos it'd mess up EVERYTHING we had going.
So I continue on with life.
And recently, they start calling J by her nick-name again. And they're all buddy-buddy. And I'm HONESTLY confused. Surely I would have been told they were friends again, right?
I mean, they WOULDN'T talk to J again, becos it was just so WRONG for ME to. Right?
WRONG
Today, I bring up to C that I miss her, and want to talk to her again. And I hoped he was okey with his
"Oh, I forgot to mention, me and M are already friends with her again! Sorry :3" says C
...
At first, I thought it was sort of an opening, for me to be able to talk to J again
But as it sunk it. I realized.
They told ME not to EVER talk to her AGAIN.
EVER
Becos it would 'Ruin what we had going' and EVERYONE was just SO much happier without her...
Except for ME.
AND WHAT HAPPENS?

.. Now, I know they PROBABLY didn't mean it to be rude or anything.
And I feel bad even for just typing this out, becos you don't talk about friends behind there backs.
I  just need someone else's opinion.

Do I have no right to feel betrayed/hurt?
Or do I have EVERY right?
OR do I have PARTIAL right?
Or.. I can has a chezburger?

[	mood	|	Owwies on my knees	]
[	music	|	Apples In Stereo - Can you feel it?	]

Kay, so after this weekend, I have learned some tips that may, or may not, help people out!
:D

HERE THEY ARE;

(If you are really drunk..)

1. Don't go on walks
2. Don't try and walk up the stairs in a big group of people
3. Settle yourself against something that will ensure your not-fally-over-ness!

I ca honestly say that I have OVER 30 bruises on my knees and arms (Some elsewhere too XD)
Just cos I have bad balance when I'm drunk XD


A quick way to describe my night last night was "WHEEEEEE *Fall* SHOTS! *Fall*... WHEEEEEE MOAR *fall falfalfalflaflalflsdglsfhlgjl*"
...
There was a lot of falling involved XD
ANYWAYS
I GOTTA GO NOW SO TATA

[	mood	|	Mucho Busy	]
[	music	|	Shake Tramp - Marianas Trench	]

Okey, MINOR minor update on why i'm never here anymore
1. School. Which is ew
2. I'm a baker >D
3. AVATAR III
:O
For real. Like my little brother and sister get me SO hardcore with this. I came TEARING up the stiars just to watch the trailer.
And now I get 10 weeks of NEW EPISODES
And I don't care what anyone says, Aangs funny, but Zuko and Kitara are going to/should SO hook up! Like, this is one of my FAVOURITE pairs of EVER-NESS, and I'm one of the biggest yaoi-fanatics I know :O
Straight pairings NEVER occur to me :O It's amazing. But yea
I have to sleep now. Before I get up for school in... 4 hours XD

[	Current Location	|	Still my freezing basemnet	]
[	mood	|	No longer stinky	]
[	music	|	Metric - Succexy	]

Mm, not much here either.
Last night = 2 hours of sleep. It was a good thing. You know, until mid-way through the day.
And then I crashed. And almost fell asleep on my GOD AWFUL SMELLING dead rat.
Mmm. Crunchy :3
ANYWAYS. I stunk of dead rat until I got home.
Then I forgot and fell asleep. Now my bed sheets reak.
*CHANGES BED SHEETS* Ew ew ew ewwwwww D:
SOOOOO I finally found time to shower between the chores and sleeps and all that.
Now I've become a coffee addict.
Mmmm. Caffine. It rocks my world in ways only few could understand.

[	Tags	|	insanity, max, the, to	]
[	Current Location	|	My freezing basement	]
[	mood	|	THE GIDDLES	]
[	music	|	Blue October - Ugly Side	]

Ever had a time where you sleep for-- Ungodly amounts of hours. (Possibly 3 days, maybe 2) And then, you have a shit day, very tiring to the end.
And then you can't sleep, and you feel GREAT?
If yes: Mm, Me too!
If no: Lucky you.
I knoooooow I should sleep the 3 hours I could get beforeI have to go to school. And for MAJOR reasons too!
I have a vocal exam, as well as a presentation in Parenting for 50 marks, and I have to disect a rat for the little ninnys in my class of Biology who won't do it if I don't.
So sleep is nessisary for these tasks, right?
But if I sleep now, I could have 2 things happening;
1) I feel better when I wake up and am ready for the day ahead,
2) I feel GOD awful because 3 hours is worse sleep then no hours, and my body just wants to sleeeeeeeep.

But I'm gonna try sleeping. And if I can't, then screw sleeping, I'll stay awake! How hard can it be?

On a lighter note! Razputine/Sasha is very shota-but-oh-so-delicious love.

But I won't touch that fandom with a 10 foot pole. Not even if it kills me >__<

*Soooooo tempted to fanartz THE ILLEGAL BUT ADDICTIVE SHOTA LOOOOOVE*

Welp! I'm off to.. Uh, sleep most likely.

Or not.

WHO KNOWS? 'Not I' said the Pig!